The Todd Blog

Today I’m doing something I’ve never done before: I’m participating in Brody Harper’s Positive Post Tuesday.

I feel compelled to do something. Something big. Something much, much bigger than I am possibly capable of doing.

Unfortunately I have no idea what this something is.

I just know that God is inviting me to be a part of His plan for me. Or, even better, His plan for the kingdom.

This invitation is both comforting and frightening. On the one hand, I find pleasure in believing there’s going to be more to my life than I could ever hope or manufacture on my own. On the other, I have no idea how it will come fruition or even begin to imagine what this life will look like.

And, if I’m honest, if I even have it in me to actually live it.

This self-doubt is fueled by the fact that my reality isn’t syncing with my daydreaming. When I fantasize about my future, there seems to be a significant disconnect between where I am today and where I need to be.

This self-doubt is a result of a flawed view of myself. Not an accurate view of my flawed self.

This self-doubt is helping me draw nearer to God. If I were supremely confident in my elite skills there would be little need for assistance from anyone – much less from the “unseen.”

So while I know very little to nothing about where I’m headed, at least for today, I’m taking joy in knowing that I’m headed.

Thanks for inspiring the introspection Brody.